It's okay if you don't know what your question is or if you even have one. It seems like you're searching and reaching, and these are good things despite the part where they're hard. Which paragraph caught your mind? Why did you like it?
hello whitney(: thanks for the reply, and yeah i was trying to figure out quite a lot of things on my own for a long time and things were hard but ive had enormous support in the past 7 1/2 months. the paragraph thats been with me all day now was this one:
"i've been thinking lately that maybe i've confused a girl for God, a different one every year or two, since the first day of junior high. And man, that is a lot of pressure to put on someone, to make them God. That is a ton of power to hand someone. Especially when they're just a person. A person with questions and flaws and pain of their own.
So maybe there's a war, inside of me and for me and maybe my heart is the opposite of small. Maybe it's the opposite of cheap and empty and alone. Maybe it's sacred and enormous and wild."
it just got my mind going about my current relationship, and how much pressure i must be putting on my girlfriend without ever really even noticing it. ive got a lot of scars (figuratively) and shes trying to heal me,and ive dedicated everything to her for it. but i realized that has to be putting a lot of stress on her, and i dont know how to make it easier for her :/ im not even sure if shes really having issues with it, but i feel like i should do something. im afraid i may be to much, and shell become overwhelmed.