Ah well it did sound a little sad to me haha. Some of my friends are helping me clear out my room so I can repaint it, so at the moment I'm just chucking paint around haphazardly. It makes me glad to hear you happy too, it makes me happy.
Yeah I'm so thankful for so many of my friends, including you. I rely so much on you all.
That really doesn't make you sound like a sap, that makes you sound like you'll be a great partner to any girl. That's all I would ask for in a relationship and it's a great thing that you would do those things for someone.
Oh right, I figured your main holiday would be around summer your time. I only have a winter break then, two weeks. Aw well thank you, I respect the way you manage to juggle so many commitments and put your best into everything you do.
First I'll apologise because this will probably end up really long, but I just want to say everything. I haven't got lyrics, but just because I see a lot of parallels I'll explain what happened to me first so I can respond properly to your situation, so that you know where I'm coming from. This happened last year and like you, the person was someone I believe out of my league. His name was Jared, typical football player, handsome, intelligent etc. To be honest, I was amazed that he wanted to be seen with me let alone go out with me. The first months were great and I fell for him so quickly and I started letting other things become less important. School became less important, so did spending time with my family. It became very dangerous very soon, like I began to mould everything I did around him. I started caring about my weight too much (like I told you before, I think, and how I lost more weight than I was comfortable with) and Amanda, who was again there for me, showed me what everything he had spiralled into. At that point I was angry, thinking that something had gone right in my life and people were trying to begrudge me happiness. Then, I guess similar to Georgie slightly, he started going out with his friends more and more often. It started out with the odd drink, which I wouldn't critisize, and next thing I know I'm getting phone calls in the middle of the night, while he's drunk, asking for a ride. And I mean, consistently, every night without fail. Then he began to ask to help him catch up in class or help him with homework he'd missed, because I was his girlfriend. Everything just spiralled and I felt like he was dragging me down with him. I just remember one day, sitting with my family and some friends at dinner, "what am I doing?" I tried to be there for him as much as I could, but no matter how much I loved him, I couldn't make him change, and that hurt for a long time. It destroyed my self-confidence to a large degree, through going out with him and hearing daily "what is he doing with her?" But none of that mattered at the time, because I had Jared. At the time I thought that was enough.
Sorry about the long-winded explanation, but firstly, I really wanted to share that with you, and I thought it would help you better understand where I come from in regards to relationships etc. I'm so incredibly sorry, Broden, that you had to go through that kind of relationship. I can sympathise with a lot of it, like I said above. It's very hard to be in a destructive relationship. I don't think it's silly to say you felt she was your one and only, I think it's amazing that you treasured her so much. I'm not going to criticise her because at some point you loved her and I respect that. Even though the love has faded, I dislike it when my friends critisize him, because I loved him once, y'know? Maybe it's just me. I'm very sorry for what happened to her though. I've seen so many people ruined by drink and drugs etc., one of the reasons I'm reluctant to ever become involved in that type of thing. I think, essentially, as sad as it sounds, sometimes love is not enough. It took me a long time to come to accept it, but sometimes love can only help someone so much and it can't always save everyone. People have to work though problems and resolve them by themselves to reach true closure, and as frustrating as it is and as guilty as it makes you feel, I don't think you could have done anything more for her Broden. I know you tried so hard to help her and I'm sure she'll come to realise how much you cared for her, eventually. I'm so sorry that you went through that kind of hurt and abuse from her mother, I think you were hurting more than they realised and you didn't deserve that extra pain of people blaming you. I feel so bad that you seem to still have guilt over the situation, and in my opinion you were in a very difficult situation and given the circumstances, I think you did the best that you could and not gutless at all. Walking away is sometimes the hardest thing to do and often the best thing you can do to help someone. I hope you can forgive yourself Broden.
I'm sorry if this is too personal, but have you moved on? Do you still see her around? I'd just hate to think you were still hurting all this time. I think the lyrics are a brilliant summation of your relationship, thank you for sharing that with me.
Well that was incredibly long so I apologise, but I really feel I know you better Broden and that is great thing. I'll speak to you soon!